Anderson..

I'm leaving for Anderson University today for a missions camp with my youth... So i'll be helping out there till friday..

The Sunset...

Now you're just another sunset to me.
Sometimes beautiful, sometimes unseen.
& you fade so fast, all this time I wish you would last.
You're not the last sunset I will see.
But you're everything I wanted the sunset to be.
& I'm sorry that this won't be the last sunset I will see.

For the first time in my life.
I want to experience the sunrise.
Is it all that I want?
Or will it never be enough?
I want to feel the morning light.
To reach a new height.
& finally, for once in my life, be alright.

Because the light is fading.
& I'm still waiting.
At the edge of this town.
For someone to say.That I'll be ok.
But the beauty is gone.
& I'm left here all alone.
It's dark and it's cold.
There's nothing left here anymore.

For the first time in my life.
I want to experience the sunrise.
Is it all that I want?
Or will it never be enough?
I want to feel the morning light.
To reach a new height.
& finally, for once in my life, be alright.

& you left me crying.
As you drove off into the night.
You don't know what I'm going through.
You don't even care enough to realize what you're putting me through.
& driving off that night.
Will never make things alright.

Because...
Now you're just another sunset to me.
Sometimes beautiful, but somtimes unseen.
& it happened so fast.
That you, my sunset, didn't last.
& you won't be the last sunset I see.
But you happened to be everything I wanted this sunset to be.

For the first time in my life.
I want to experience the sunrise.
& finally, for once in my life, be alright.

This Blackhole...

You got the best of me.
Now there's nothing left of me.
What do you have to say.
For being the way.
You are.
Now I've got these walls.
They're building up so tall.
I want so bad to escape.
From this imprisonment of hate.
& we all fall down.
As your hurtful lies spin around.
& I fall in.
This blackhole that spins.
You and I.
We are no more.
I give and you take.
As my heart breaks.
& you walk away.
Why won't you say.
Something.
That tells me you care.
That someday you'll be there.
For me.
But all my hopes.
Are crushed under the waterfall.
Of my tears.
& of these fears.
That I now have.
I'm so weak.
I can't even speak.
To tell you that it hurts.
That you walked away first.
Now I've got these walls.
They're building up so tall.
I want so bad to escape.
From this imprisonment of hate.
& we all fall down.
As your hurtful actions spin around.
& I fall in.
This blackhole that spins.
Your excuses are to much to take.
I wish you could apologize for my sake.
Why can't you.
Just tell me the truth.
For once.
& I fall down.
As your haunting shadow spins around.
& I fall in.
This fateful blackhole again.