Forbidden...(quest for true beauty)

You're indulging in being perfect.
It's like a cry out.
That you have doubt.
S.O.S. your signals are ablaze.
With guilty pleasures this day and age.

Forbidden.
Are your ways.
Your desires.
Are to much to take.
Your fire.
That's burning.
Is and always will be.
Forbidden.

Your gifted with glamour.
It doesn't make you Queen of Fashion.
Did you take your soul and cash in?
For all these worldly possessions.

Forbidden.
Are your ways.
Your desires.
Are to much to take.
Your fire.
That's burning.
Is and always will be.
Forbidden.

Stop the effort.
Of telling me.
Who I'm suppose to be.
It's sending shock to my mind.
Of what you will find.
When you see that being kind.
Is the new mean.

Forbidden.
Are your ways.
Your desires.
Are to much to take.
Your fire.
That's burning.
Is and always will be.
Forbidden.

I wish there was something.
I could say.
To make you see.
That being fake.
Is all that it takes.
To end up like those fashion magazines.
Once a big hit.
But now stacked and torn.
Your life will never be the same.

Please refrain.
From indulging in your quest.
To find perfectness.
Because what really matters.
Is that which is found within.
That which is not forbidden.

True beauty.

Memory of Her that Repeats...

He hears the echos of her.
Laying so close to her touch.
He can feel her breathing.
Remembering what was enough.
To make his heart skip a beat.
It's that memory of her that repeats.

He sees her there dancing around.
Her lips move but not a sound.
The fragrance he smells.
Brings back the tale.
Of her and him together again.

He reaches out to the unknown.
Grasps the ghost in the air.
That was once lying there.
He tastes her sweetness.
Like her memory was a fresh.
Her abandoned spot in that bed.
Where she once said.
I love you.

He tries to forget.
What was once there.
He can't get rid of that I miss you stare.
He wants so bad for her to be there.
When he wakes up.
He thinks a comforting thought.
That she'll be there saying.
I'm home for good.
A long embrace.
A touch of his face.
To let him know.
That she'll always be there.

But all he hears are the echos of her.
Laying so close to her touch.
He can feel her breathing.
Remembering what was enough.
To make his heart skip a beat.
It's that memory of her that repeats.

Forever and Always Feeling...

So he thinks what he wants to.
Say what he meant to.
Be who he is suppose to be.

'Cuz I'm tired of walking on by.
Seeing that same look in your eyes.
Trying not to remember you.
The thought of you missing me.
Use to be my security.
But all you ever were, was a bottle of misery.

& she drank him until.
She recieved the letter in the mail.
Saying his love for her was fading away.
Like the sunset on the sea.
Saying that him and her could never be.

She's all torn up.
The thought of not being enough.
For him.
She's sick of the feeling.
Not worth missing.
& she cries.
That forever and always feeling.
Her mind is in tangles.
He's wrapped up in her heart.
There's no letting go.
She can't make it stop.

She walks with her head held up high.
But her heart is sunken down on low.
She wants to let him go.
But he's in control.
There's no winning in this game.
Just loss of tears and one name.

She's all torn up.
The thought of not being enough.
for him.
She's sick of the feeling.
Not worth missing.
& she cries.
That forever and always feeling.
Her mind is in tangles.
He's wrapped up in her heart.
There's no letting go.
She can't make it stop.

The thought of you missing me.
Use to be my security.
But all you turned out to be.
Was my bottle of misery.

Call Me Out..

It's the wind that spreads rumors.
Sending forth the storms.
It's the breath of awareness.
That comes knocking on my door.
The blindness that shadows.
The weakened mind.
The stone cold heart.
That is determined to fight.

Call me out, Call me out, Call me out right now.
If you're looking for a battle, call me out.
Call me out.

Your hurtful words are sinking through.
The shields that protect you & your lies.
Your playful games are sending rage.
To those who see right through your clear as water skin.
Your mind is full of ambition.
To take this stranger down.

Call me out, Call me out, Call me out right now.
If you're looking for a battle, call me out.
Call me out.
Call me out, Call me out, Call me out right now.
If you're looking for a battle, call me out.
Call me out.

You couldn't get.... what you wanted.
Everything that.... this girl got.
You take your jealousy... and you flaunt it.
Like you got something .....that he wants.

Call me out, Call me out, Call me out right now.
If you're looking for a battle, call me out.
Call me out.

Your mindless lies.
Will lead to defeat.
Your jealousy.
Won't bring anyone to their knees.

So stop....
Stop right there...
Stop saying...
Stop saying stuff about me...
So stop....
Stop right there...
Stop saying...
Stuff about me...

Cuz if you looking for a battle
Call me out right now...

Call me out, Call me out, Call me out right now.
If you're looking for a battle, call me out.

Cuz I've definitely got something worth fighting for.
So Call me out..

What makes people do the things that they do?

Can someone please tell me what goes through a mind of a girl? Cuz I just don't understand it at all..... What makes someone act out because of jealousy?How can you say bad things about someone you don't even know?...Someone you have never even met before.... Who could do that?? If you have something to say about someone then why don't you tell it to that person? I know a couple of reasons.... could it be that you don't know the person that you are talking about???.. or maybe it's that you really don't have the right to talk about someone like that... One more thing why would a person talk about someone they don't know and say BAD things about them...... when in all truth... they are the ones going after your boyfriend?? But here I am trying to have respect for a person inspite of what they say about me and my bf..... How can people despise you so much over a guy?? Just wish someone could help me understand it all.....



Much love,
Tosh

First Week...

Are you far away in a new life?
Are you wearing the same dress that you wore when we met the first night?
Are you feeling it in a different time?
Are you telling the same jokes that you told me when we met the first time?
The first time how we slept with the light on...
And the sun's coming up and we woke up on the floor...
Everything that you feel that you can't describe....
Why can't it be like the first week?
Am I far away in your thoughts sometimes?
Are you telling your friends that you can't live without him like we met the first time?
Do you lie awake and wonder why?
Is it always the same thing or is this just a new dream that's keeping you up at night...
The first time how we slept with the light on...
and the sun's comin up and we woke up on the floor...
all the things that you feel that you can't describe..
why can't it be like the first week?
I've been up and down your street calling your house...
I won't wait up till you get home...
i just maybe better off alone..
The first time how we slept with the light on...
and the sun's comin up and we woke up on the floor....
all the things that you feel that I can't describe
why can't it be...The first night how we slept with the light off..
All the stars shine above
And all our clothes are on the floor....All the things that I feel that I can't describe....
Why can't it be like the first week?

Better than the first week...:)