Slip n Slide Craziness

Past Sounds

The rolling thunder in the distance.

In time we’ll truly miss this.

Don’t we all complain.

Because today’s not the same.

Without you here

I can’t breathe

Because time has taken ,

The very breath out of me..

Can’t you see, that we’re older.

Time is ticking as the room gets colder.

Where we use to lie,

& stay up all night.

& never want to turn out the light.

No sleep without you by my side.

& nothing.. can erase.

The feeling taken over us..

Passionate displays.

Will never go away.

& time can slow us down.

As our past echoes all the sounds.

Winters here and summers way past over.

& I caught a glimpse the other day of her.

The one you have to be true to.

But all the things you say are overdue.

Because you weren’t true.

& the fact is..

I still thought I loved you.

& nothing..can erase.

The feeling over this place.

Passionate goodbyes.

Will never replace the lies.

& time will shut me down.

As our past echoes all the sounds.

Will I truly ever let myself breathe?

Will I ever let you let me leave?

This place we once found..

Desire and faith burned to the ground..

Maybe I let myself go for too long.

That’s the reason I wrote this song.

& nothing.. can erase.

The feeling we replaced.

With a secret and a lie.

You truly let me die.

& tonight I’ll shut myself down.

To hide myself from your sound…

Oohh your sweet sound….

Away from the World

Away from the world, spinning around at the edge of the city, there she was. She stared out into the unknown, almost disappearing into the darkness after the sun gently kissed the horizon. Mysterious as the ground beneath and the stars above, that’s how she lived. She was wild and lived from the land. The air that she breathed in gave her the life that she needed and what was exhaled was said to be a gift straight from God. Her presence among others was like no other, almost arriving as yet a beautiful darkness. Something in her was pure yet spread the expression of past experience. She felt the stares but never acknowledged their existence. She knew no one and no one knew of her. They assumed she carried herself in the manner of a broken, torn apart departed soul, but no one was fully aware of the responsibility that she carried with her. Every day was something she never experienced, someplace she had never ever been before.

There was a certain tortured look in her eyes, in the deep pools of brown that shown a brave yet dying on the inside expression. Beyond that, her lost smile seemed to appear in the deepest moments possible. Sunny days rarely arrived on the edge of the city, but something inside drew her closer to the edge of darkness. The still scene embraced the world around and the clouds that once illuminated the sky have gone away.

I haven't written in awhile.. so here's a little something.

Caught In-between..

17, I’m caught in-between

Wishing for someone to save me,

From this mess.

Already knew the leaving was coming

Just took some time to think it through

& we are all taken away.

By everything you say.

I’m the only one to know.

What you do to me.

You are the worst part of me.

You break me down until I can’t see.

But somehow you stay &

I continue to get treated this way.

I can’t say no, yet I don’t want to say yes.

I guess its best,

If I write you one last letter.

To show you I’m not bitter.

But tell you how you tore me apart.

Piece by piece.

& I’m leaving now with my dignity, stripped away by vanity.

These goodbyes are hurting me.

They take me away with every breath you take.

I can’t be with you, but somehow I can’t go on without you.

You stole my very heart, & also tore my soul apart.

I’m speechless, yet I’m holding back my anger.

Trying to get away from the one thing that matters.

To me.

17, I'm caught in-between.

Remembering us.

Forgetting all the rest.

& here's my test.

do I follow the road back to my life.

Or do i cross paths & fight back time.

17, caught in these crossroads.

tell me, where do i go.

Blue Skies..

blue skies fall down.
on those sunny days.
& we all lay around.
without anything to say.
& he says things have to change.
& she says things will never be the same.

Are you listening to this story.
It's about how we all fall apart.
Things are not what they seem to be.
As he silently breaks her heart.
as she tells herself she needs a new start.

she walks alone telling herself.
To let out all this pain.
shes hurting inside can't you see.
As she drops to the floor,
she screams his name in vain.

Why are you crying tonight?
Don't blame yourself for what he did.
As she falls on her knees.
& begs to know why.
As shes slowly dying inside.

& those blue skies are falling down.
on those sunny days so long ago.
& we all learn to trust again.
letting out all of this hurt.
& shes laying around wondering why.
She ever cried for him.
Because all she needs right now.
Is herself again.

I don't know what to say.
When it's all gone away.
When it's all passed.
When everything we thought, didn't last.
I don't know how to say.
That we might not ever be the same.
Cuz it lasted like the wind on the sea.
Sometimes strong.
More often Unseen.

I don't know how to deal.
With something that almost killed.
Who I was.
I want to say i'm sorry.
But will you listen.
That's why I write this now.
I guess you could call me a coward.

I'm sorry.
Sorry about me.
Sorry about you.
Sorry that we took.
something undeniable true.

I wrote you a letter.
You never recieved.
Cuz I'm a coward.
I guess you can see.

I'm sorry.
Sorry I call.
Sorry I think.
Even more sorry.
Then you'll ever think.

I know you don't think.
About any of it now.
I know you've moved on.
It's easy to see how.

But I'm still sorry.
About it all.
About the rise.
About the fall.

i guess you could say.
i'm sorry about what you never knew.
the one thing.
i could never tell you.
by then it was over.
all past due.

im sorry.
i tried to tell you.
im sorry.

Secretly Out of Habit...

Out of habit.
I smile at you.
You smile right back through.
I know it's wrong.
But we've waited so long.
I linger at the door.
Waiting for you.
I'm out on a limb.
Go on and take this hand.

And we danced.
With every strike of the chorus.
This artificial romance.
Begins to lure us.
With every beat that draws us near.
We take a step back in this fear.

You begin to eye my every step.
This montage of a moon-lit scene.
You take away my breath.
As I'm led to this false infallible scene.

And we danced.
With every strike of the chorus.
This artificial romance.
Begins to lure us.
With every dip that I take.
Another inevitable move you make.

Somehow this is inescapable.
We can't alter the unexplainable.
Secret gestures made my way.
Open-eyed ones thrown on back.

We meet in chances that we'll dance.
& continue in this artificial romance.
Cuz we can't fight it.
Can't deny it.
But somehow live by it.

& out of habit we smile.

What a tragedy.
All these promises unkept.
All the memories.
Of us at our best.

Why do we go on.
Saying all the things we never meant.
Why do we continue.
To make our lives a mess.

We make the choices.
That destroy our hearts.
We cause each other so much pain.
What is even worth.

& why do we go on.
Making up these lies.
This isn't who we are.
The people deep down inside.
Why do we keep feeling this way.
Thinking about the days.
When truth is all we knew.

We hold fate in our hands.
So what do we do.
Get all wrapped up in things not to do.
& here we are again.
Spinning around and around.
Someone stop us.
Take a moment and look in our eyes.
Grasp life once again.

Why do we go on.
Forgetting all the good.
Because of all the bad.
If you'd only listen.
Why do we even care.